Anyone felt like bursting over being controlled ? Like you're only left with doing what you really like and now you have curfews over doing them ? If there's anyone, or someone, my heart goes out to you .
I live my life for 19 years . I gave 16 years of which studying like a freak, dressed up like a 101% total nerd ass hole and mommy's girl . I scored in school and hit off 'O' levels with a good result . And i told myself i need some time to let my hair down .
I started drinkin at the age of 17 and really found that i have interests in automobiles . Partying makes me feel that life can go this far, it's like a sweet reward after a long day's work . Cars wise, VTEC, I-VVT, manifolds, mufflers, turbo, supercharger, i read them up myself and try to understand them . It was fun and eye-opening, though i'm still learning .
That's about it all . I suck at school now, always getting border line passes, but nevertheless i did try and make an effort to attend school .
Right now, it's like every move i make is a wrong step . So after i become married i'm have to change to another person ? Seriously, i didn't know one has to be a hypocrite just because of marriage .
So what if i club ? So what if i like cars ? I just wanna be myself, MYSELF !
From the day i signed on that piece of paper to get married, i know what i can do and what i can't do . I can't have sex with other guys but i can go out with guys as friends . I can't dirty dance with guys but i can still go clubbing .
I've tamed myself enough for you . From handful of flings a week to nothing right now, from smoker to non smoker, from drinkin till i drop to drinkin a bit . Appreciate it or not, up to you .
I wish i was immune to all troubles .
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